Happiness

I find myself wondering. Am I really happy? Is this really the right thing for me?

I was so happy for so long and now I'm just... I don't feel like myself.  Instead of working on myself I am working on my girlfriend.  I don't have the energy to make myself happy and keep her spirits up.  I talked to an old friend on the phone today for a few minutes and during the conversation I realized that my voice was so sad and low... I have a lot of stress right now, but I'm just also thinking about all the things in my life currently.  My spirit is gone, I may as well be living in a hole in the ground with the way I sound.  I am down. I am very down and I think I've been down for a while.

I am using my bank of energy for someone else... I guess I need some time to work on myself.. figure things out... make myself happy again. So that I can keep going in this life.

and I think some compromises need to be worked out. It's not right that I am pouring so much in and taking the hits.

Time to go make some dinner.